Finding out!

Well, on Labor Day I decided to take a home pregnancy test and sure enough, it was positive! With tears of joy I burst in to wake up Seth to tell him. He just held me and we layed in silence to let it sink in. It was hard not the think of the last time we got a positive test. We had gotten home after Bible study and had picked up a test on the way home. Doubtful that it would be positive, but I had been having some symtoms so we went ahead and bought it. As the two lines went across, we were both literally in shock (we had only been married 6 weeks!), but so excited that the Lord had performed a miracle and created a little one.

It was a little different this time. We lost the pregnancy "bliss" that we once knew when we lost our son. We decided that we would take one day at a time and truly celebrate this pregnancy each day.

Our first celebration - we went out to a nice Italian restaurant and talked about our excitement, our fears, and what we need to think about with this pregnancy. We made a list of things we want to try NOT to do, here it is:

We will try not to Complain - No matter how sick I get, I want to be truly thankful for these symtoms as a reminder that I am still pregnant.

We need to be careful of our Expectations - We need to be willing to accept and want whatever the Lord's will is through this pregnancy. Not what we want, but what He wants.

We will try not to Replace Samuel - We need to remember that this is his sibling and not feel like we are replacing what we have lost.

We will try not to Worry - The Lord says to be "anxious for nothing, but in everything give thanks..." So, we will be thankful for each day and try to trust the Lord through everything.

Well, four weeks... Not very far along, but I am thankful for the joy that the Lord has given me for today!